Today is a big day.

Today is a big day for me for serveral reasons, firsty I hate hospital.  As an anxiety sufferer, hospitals are like a pandora's box of scary.  Needles, small spaces, scary people in masks, noise, fear, its all there.  I can do hospitals, I am just not comfortable.

Secondaly, this is a me day.  There is no one in my life that will benefit from this as much as me. So I have put me first as I feel this is a tool for success for me for so many reasons.

My end of year goal is to go on a holiday with just my husband we havent done that since 2009 when we took our first trip to Bali.  Since then I have been to the UK and Europe with my Grandma, Bali with him and the kids and Lombok with my bestie.

I dont where I want to take him but I am thinking a more active holiday than I have been able to do before. Its not always the weight quite often its the side effects of the weight on a holiday that hold me back. No sleep because the sleep machine doesn't perform as it should in the humidity for me, aches and pains and then the asthma.  I am thinking New Zealand, Indonesia again or maybe Darwin if the funds permit.  So sad how it is more expensive to travel in our own country when there is so much to see.

Well that pondering took my mind off things for a while....  Off to have that pre op shower.

Bye for now

Chelle